Week 1: Coping With Stress
Stress can really put you in a hijack situation where you want to escape and suppress what you're really going through. Sometimes you end up meeting somebody who temporarily replaces or minimizes the stress that you are feeling inside.
I found myself wanting to spend so much time with my new friend not knowing that he was poisonous for me! Have you ever been in a position where you were a little curious then it turned into something else?
At the moment it was like magic, great convo, spending time everyday. Well that was my world he was my everything and he secretly became my drug.
He promised that he would take my mind off of my stress and I definitely was intrigued. I honestly didn't want to think of whenever that was stressing me so he had my attention. Is he really helping me or is he preying on my weakness?
The more time I spent with him I didn't think much of my stress. He had me detracted and it felt like every time I was feeling stressed I would rely on him taking my stress away. I started noticing a pattern and he wanted to spend more time and I was having a hard time saying no.
What made me so confused is the whole time I felt depression was following me around. First I am super stressed, I built an attachment to my friend and depression is creeping in? Stress can cause you to do things that you don't want to do but because you're focusing on masking the pain that it just blocks your ability to really make the right decisions. Is this my excuse or imagination?
At the moment it was like magic, great convo, spending time every day. Well that was my world he was my everything and he secretly became my drug.
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